Glasgow Green with Nelson monument and People's Palace
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Welcome to my poetry, and a few pieces of prose.
Page titles are self-explanatory except perhaps The dark night and dawning of the soul, which presents extracts from a longer sequence of poems.
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The Invitation
The reeds growing thickly, clogging the stream
are dug and pulled and piled on the bank;
the sluggish clunk of the mill-wheel quickens
to a workmanlike chug, clearing, in time,
pondweed and watercress, leaves and green slime;
the water runs clear and at early morning
the kingfisher’s back, a flame in the shadows.
After summer’s stagnation, late August brings
an invitation, a blue flash, my heart sings.
The River Snail, Fordham
Untitled sonnet
Now I am old and grey and tend to grouch
and groan, bemoan the bits that ache, complain
and blame the world for who I have become,
and looking back at what I did in life
and did not do, and hurt and was hurt by,
it seems survival’s price was paid in hope.
But when I learn to love this ageing self
a light appears anticipating dawn,
illuminating purpose in the world:
how ordinary people are so kind,
how others, finding courage, live their truth,
how more than ever human hearts can feel
another’s pain. Within these fateful times
the burning fuse of our evolving shines.
To my Unknown Grandmother
You held me once, I do not remember –
I, a baby and you, an old lady.
In the worn, inter-war photograph
you beam in your monochrome garden,
gaunt and poor, stone-deaf, full of joy.
I think since then you’ve always been with me –
somebody has, invisibly guiding –
a warmth running through me, a lifting of thoughts,
hands holding me back from the fatal edge
to which I was drawn too many times.
How can I thank you when I cannot meet you
except when we pass, unremembered at night?
My grandmother, Fanny Ashen
My Own Private Jericho
When I fled the homosexual life
hiding in the fortress of denial
under banners of propriety
with its basilica of piety
walls excluding otherness
towers of self-righteousness,
I found that nothing stops the wind of truth
bearing storms of inner conflict,
or the blazing sunshine of self-knowledge
casting deadly shadows.
The attackers blew trumpets
my Jericho tumbled
I crawled out from the ruins
fearful and shame-full,
discovered my besieger
was an army of angels.
The Muse on Boxing Day
Turned up at the page,
the muse didn't show;
the sheet as white as
snow on snow.
I bet he’s up there
with Dante and Virgil
telling them how
I go round in circles.
He strolls in Arcadia
with Coleridge and Wordsworth
leaving me creatively
blocked and wordless;
divulging to Kipling
the colonial old stiff
how my entire output
is one big if;
with Gerard Manley-Hopkins
having a gossip
about how I made little
of my time in the closet,
and how none of my volumes
are found on the shelf
when even McGonagall
made a name for himself;
talking sex and religion
with John, his old friend
while I, down below,
am Done with one n.
But I guess even muses
sometimes need breaks;
I’ll come back tomorrow –
perhaps he’ll bring Shakes...